Monday, April 12, 2010

Emotional Rollercoaster

I have (what I think is) an important post in drafts about marriage. Now I don't claim to be anywhere near expert level, but I AM married, and in just 4 months, I have begun to learn a thing or two.

If you've read my last few posts you might think that That Dude and I are having problems, well, I assure you that we're fine! We are more in love (most days) than we've ever been before, so just stay tuned and in the next day or two I hope to get this post up and maybe some feedback from you (yes, YOU!)

Saturday, April 10, 2010


Laying here in bed. So in love. So full of doubt and worry. All of the "what if's" running through my head like a freight train at full speed. Wish I could say that "only time will tell" but the reality is that if you're good at being bad then time won't reveal much and if you're good at being good I don't want to keep wasting time with unnecessary jealousy. Why can't I just confront you? Why don't I have the guts to ask you about it?

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Friday, April 9, 2010


...It is hard to trust...
...I just want to give up...
...You say and do little things that hurt but I don't say anything...
...You do little things that I notice but don't mention for the sake of not sounding paranoid or being the crazy jealous wife...

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Monday, April 5, 2010


Thoughts racing through my mind
Amazingly I trust
More annoyed than scared
Why aren't we on the same wavelength?

Is it age that makes us so different?
Is it male vs female?
Why is it so easy for him
And so hard for me to understand?

Listening to breathing in the dark
Praying that the next few months will bring a conversion
Knowing that it will take more than simply time
Worrying that I'll be too hard - or worse, too soft

Oh baby, how I worry about your daddy
I worry about how we're connecting
Am I doing something wrong?
Or are my expectations simply skewed?

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