Friday, March 27, 2009

A Little Help Please...?

I need help!!

Is it ridiculous for me to have developed feelings for someone so quickly after my break-up? Is it wrong for me to be entertaining the possibility of a new relationship already?

I need help with this one like never before!! Also, I'm thinking about the qualities I want in a mate and I'd love to hear your suggestions for qualities that should be on "THE LIST"

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Stellan has gone into prolonged V-Tach

Please keep this darling baby boy in your prayers! And Lord Jesus, please give his parents peace as they go through each procedure with him. For more info on Stellan, check out MckMama's blog

Prayers for Stellan


School has been kind of rough these days, and it's taking everything in me not to quit. I just want to finish already so that my mom can be proud of me, but when it's time to do it, I just feel overwhelmed. Please keep me in your prayers. I'm keeping focused on Mark 11:24 and asking God for the perseverance necessary to finish strong.

I am very excited about a recent grade though. While filling in answers and writing an essay for my Anthropology class last week, all I wanted was at least a passing grade. I would've been pleased with a D. So imagine my surprise when I logged into Blackboard on Monday evening and the grade staring back at me was a 90! I was ecstatic! It definitely was a bright spot in my day, as well as a reminder that I really am capable of doing this. Let's see how the next few weeks go.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Praying for Stellan

This blog is more than just a place for me to ramble on incessantly, so today I'm asking that you please pray for Stellan and his family.

I'll get the ball rolling by saying here that I pray that Stellan's condition turns around IMMEDIATELY! And of course that MckMama and Prince Charming are comforted by the Holy Spirit as they pray their way through this.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

New Life, New Me...

Any one of many people in the last week: "Hey Mel, you've changed your look, and you always seem to be smiling these days. What's going on?"
Me (with a smile): "New life, new me."

Now of course, some people get more of an explanation than that, but everyone who asks gets the same opening remark, because it's so true. I will not bad talk T, because he really wasn't a bad guy, but there is no doubt in my mind at this point that our relationship held me down. Honestly though, that was my own fault for allowing so much negativity to cloud my mind.

But here I am, almost a month after ending things and I've already seen drastic changes in my attitude towards life, people, and even towards our relationship. I can see things now that I couldn't when I was still involved. In stepping back, I'm able to see that there were many unchangeable factors that I never had control over and that things just were not meant to be from day one. And I also see how much I've learned and grown since June 2001. I know what is important to me in a relationship, and I'm not just talking about romantic relationships either! Qualities like respect and patience are mandatory for any relationship to work.

I am so grateful for everyone who has been with me through the last eight years (or any part of it) to listen to my complaints, hug me when I needed it, give me the truth when I didn't want to hear it, and so much more. A couple of months ago, I didn't know if I could go through a breakup with him again. I even contemplated staying with him to ride it out JUST so that I wouldn't have to repeat what we went through in 2006. But with constant prayer, I've made it, and there's no turning back now!

Anybody want to celebrate my new life and the new me with me?

Friday, March 13, 2009

So I'm kind of annoyed cuz this morning I put together a great (though I'll admit my bias) post about my new life P.R. (Post Relationship). I even included a cell phone pic with my new hairdo (ok, it's probably only going to be a big deal for those who see me all the time since there aren't many pics of me up here). But since I was putting it all together on my new Samsung Instinct (which I still don't LOVE) somehow it got deleted before my subway ride was over so I never got the chance to hit send! Grrr...

Well, here's the pic:

And just believe me when I say I'm happily living my life again! Maybe over the weekend I'll ake the time to expand on that statement, but for now, just be happy for me (please?)

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Contest Alert!!

Head over to KingdomMama's blog for a chance to win a digital camera! I would say that I hope you win, but since I'm hoping that I win, that wouldn't be completely honest of me. Well, if I don't win, I really would love it if one of my readers won!

And while you're there, check out her other posts! She's a wonderful gal, and I've already grown to love her and her kids just from her blog!!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Someday Saturday

Callan's Mom came up with an idea for posts that I love called Someday Saturday. Make sure to check out her blog right here.


I'll get married and have kids (if it's in God's plan for me.) But if it never happens, I will still love Him and praise Him.

Everyone should see the movie "Facing the Giants". I saw it last night with some friends from church and I was reminded of some of my own struggles with faith and with standing up to the 'giants' in my own life. One giant that has been laughing in my face and daring me to fight has been faith in God that I do deserve and will have in His time, a man who I can spend my life with and someday raise children with.

So, as of today, before all of you, I declare that I'm ready to fight the good fight of faith. I can't promise myself no more tears, but I promise that I'll turn to Him for comfort. I can't promise myself that I won't continue to think about it, but I promise to pray diligently and faithfully and praise Him no matter what.

What do you see in your own "Someday"?

Thursday, March 5, 2009


Everyone, head over to Kingdom Mama's blog for a chance to win a camera!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

In Case Anyone Is Wondering...

...I'm feeling AMAZING right now. I'm listening to a Kevin Singleton CD and I want to cry because of how OVERWHELMING God's love is for us!

Nausea still comes and goes, but I think I've figured out the problem, so hopefully that will end soon. Ears are still hurting (but the dizzy spells are much less often these days!) And there's a crapload of shit that I'm dealing with but haven't really mentioned, but even with that stuff, I feel stable right now.

Ain't God great?!

Ok, ok, proceed with your regularly scheduled lives.